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My first blog....how did I get here? This notion came to me this morning as I reflected on yesteday. Yesterday was a real crabby day for me....yes, I said crabby..not crappy. I wish I could tell you why, but I haven't the slightest idea. A girl friend and I reflected after work and over a beer or two. The honest truth is that I was irritated with everything that everyone did or didn't do. Unfortunately, much of this was directed at my husband. He didn't have it coming. He was just there. Following a day of irritation, I was fortunate enough to spend the evening with 2 of my grandchildren. The irritation went away. I was happy.

Obviously, the neverending love that I have for my grandchildren is part of the reason that I had this sudden turnabout. But, I think there might be more. This is a comfortable role for me...caretaker of children. The fact that it was my grandchildren of course made it more enjoyable, but just the same, it is a comfortable role for me. I know what to do in this setting.
I raised four children myself, so I have had some practice!

But, alas my roles are changing. Most days I am thrilled by this prospect. I have time to quilt. I have time to garden. If I want to leave the house - I do. If I want to take a trip - I can be packed in 20 minutes!! No extras - just my stuff!! This freedom provides me with what is supposed to be a "whole new life." If I want to lay on the couch and watch TV all day long, I can. So why do I find myself not always enjoying this part of my life?

I guess I didn't come prepared. I guess that is why I am here.

In conversation with friends, I know that I am not the only one who has these notions...these crabby days. But perhaps through sharing and exploration, we can come together to help each other out, to share our successes, to wallow if we need. Please share your thoughts, your joys, your life.